This is a picture of me when I was just starting to show when I was pregnant with Audelia.
Cory and I were just talking and I realized that I have spent the better part of the last 10 years of my life carrying, birthing, and nursing my children. Thanks to my recent hysterectomy I am officially done having more kids and I am so ready to say goodbeye to pregnancy for good! I loved having my babies but the carrying them part had me feeling physically terrible and emotionally crazy for about 45 months of my life. That doesn't include the aftermath that never seemed to completely calm until a year or so after giving birth which is about the time I was always done nursing.
There is a part of me that gets a little sad when I think about not actually having any more babies but the fact is I have Fibromyalgia now and the way that I felt during the last pregnancy I would never consider doing it again, not only for my sake but for my family and especially Cory. While I was barely able to walk because of the pain not to mention the morning sickness Cory was the only reason that anything was getting clean and that any of us were eating, other than my frequent trips to Taco Bell. Besides all that 4 kids is plenty, and a lot of work, but they are great kids and we are grateful to have them.
I am looking forward to focusing on the kids that I have without making any more. Audelia is 3 months next week and I can't believe how quickly time passes. Cory and I constantly say that it will be alright because as fast as it seems like they grow they will be having their own babies for us to enjoy. Now if only we could convince them not to move away like we did.
